Going to circle, the story.
Resistance to going to circle is not the same thing as being called not to go to circle.
As I sat in circle tonight, on Zoom, I thought, “I almost didn’t make it to this tonight.”
The day before I was lost in stress and in a moment of “boundaries” I said to myself I would not go to monthly circle. But I have learned, through years and decades of showing up to the work, that a resistance to going to circle is not the same thing as being called not to go to circle.
Deep breath.
So I reached out via email. I had not gotten the Zoom link. Was circle still happening?
Yes.
Yes it was.
The link had been sent, but now it would be sent to me again.
I frowned.
Was I disappointed that it wasn’t cancelled? Now I had to go.
I don’t have to go. It’s a choice, I thought back, like I was stamping my foot.
But I have learned, through years and decades of showing up to the work, that a resistance to going to circle is not the same thing as being called not to go to circle.
Deep breath.
Ok.
Surrender.
What do I need to be able to show up for circle?
That question made all the difference.
I took the evening off. I spent time in the guest room. I reconnected with my deep process. I found myself again. I had a hard conversation on the phone. I cried. I felt release of that stress. I felt peace.
I showed up for circle.
Really showed up.
Fully showed up.
And that continues to make all the difference.
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